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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Blog Post 4

October -November

I have been really bad at updating my blog and I must apologise for not posting anything of late. The last few months have gone by so fast. In my last post I mentioned that I was going back to the hospital for another three weeks and  they went by so quickly.I was able to work in maternity and casualty and I really enjoyed casualty the most out of all the specialities I have tried so far. I will be going to theater this month and I really think I will enjoy that too.

I had three weeks in theory over the month of November and I am so thankfull that the exams have come and gone already for this year, we had our first stripe ceremony which means we half way passed the first year. I passed my first  and my second PSR(which is good news) ,I only have one more to go until the end of first year. All the glory and thanks goes to God .I am so thankfull for the faithful prayers and financial support that He has provided through His body(the church). I want to publically thank each and everyone of you who have walked this road with me.

It has been a challenge to remain faithfull to God's word, to find joy in my trials and to see dissapointments as blessings from God. It is only by His transforming grace that I have kept my eyes focused on Him. Here are a few personal challenges that I have needed to deal with over the past two months: my health, my dad's funeral,the lack of being able to meet with an older woman on a regular basis,and unsettling living arraingments with me living/moving up and down between Jhb and Vaalpark.It has been difficult to maintain the relationships that I have built over the past few years and it has been difficult to commit to one spicific church or ministry. It can be a very dangerous place to be because it is so easy to hide what is really going on in one's own  heart most of the time. However I must thank the Lord for His abundant provission with regards to godly friends all over the world who I have been available to chat to , through many heart issues regarding sin and even the joys and hurts that we have been able to experiance together.

I have had countless oportunities to meet with other likeminded people.I attended the Sheapards confrence at grace in Pretoria, the Paul tripp confrence at Antioch and even the John Piper confrence in Sandton. Is the Lord not good to us, how undeseving we are of His blessings, yet He gives them freely to those who He loves?What a blessing each confrence has been ,I have been challenged in how I use my words,and the state of my heart out of which my mouth speaks. I have  been encouraged  to see how the Lord continues to build His church with His people even when there seems to be disunity going on behind the scenes. I was reminded of God's desire for His own glory and the practicle implications of  living in light of that truth . I attended three Christian camps this year and was hit with the reality of the true state of the church today.

When I consider the many ways in which the Lord has Sovereignly kept me I am overwhelmed at His goodness. I will continue to keep my eyes on Him, the author and perfector of my faith for the road I walk and the journey at times feels burdensome.But His yolk is light and He promises to carry it for me.
I think the most challenging areas of sin for me this year was that of fear and doubt which really shows what lack of trust I have in my Lord.

The Lord has constantly been right besides me, he has been my sheppard and His rod and staff has comforted me.My dad passed away on the last day of the Piper conference and when I prayed for the Lord to use my dad's death so many would hear the Gospel being preached and that some would come to the saving knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ. The Gospel was heard and who knows who's life He is busy changing by the power of His word.

2011 does present itself with many new challenges and decisons and I will need much wisdom and guidance and help in deciding how to go forward from here. To become a qualified Sister I will need to continue with another 3 years . I have been fully supported for my first year and have no idea what lies ahead for the year to come BUT I am trusting and relying on the Lord for each day and there is no doubt in my mind, that if this is what He would have me do, that He would provide for me so that I may finish what He has started in me.

Will post something soon again !
in Christ
tash