Blog Post 14

November - April

I have delayed in sending out this newsletter update and in all honesty I really have no excuse for my silence. I am not really sure what to say or where to start but I do covet your prayers. Thank you so very much for your continued prayer and support, it really has meant the world to me.Please may I ask that you continue praying for me and my heart. Pray that I would not loose sight of the glory of God. Pray that I will cling to Him and not loose sight of the hope that I have, please pray that I would continue to pursue Christ and His Word, by His grace. Moment by moment, day by day, that I may rest the whole weight of my being on the promises of God.

Praise the Lord for His grace, I was accepted by Netcare for entry into third year nursing and I am currently doing my practicals at Pretoria East Hospital and attending lectures at Centurion Campus. We recently wrote an Ethos exam so please pray, that if the Lord wills, that I would pass.I am really learning so much and I am most thankful to the Lord for this change.I did not always understand it, I was not always thankful for it and I did not always think it was the right move, but I was moved..

I have had the privilege of staying with my youngest brother Christopher and his girlfriend for the last 5 months.We had shared some great memories overseas together and I am so thankful to the Lord for that time, as difficult as it seemed God was still in control.We often had arguments about my faith and many opportunities presented themselves where I was called to live out what I really believe.It was not easy and I often failed, however God was gracious and merciful to us all.

Just four months later, I received a call from my sister to tell me the devastating news. Our brother  Christopher was in an unexpected explosion at his scrap yard. Oh how I long for some hope, some answer but I can not have that assurance. It is not an easy thing and it's painful and I would trade the immensity of this grief for anything. But I rest in the character of God and the truth found in scripture, it is the only place to find true hope. To know that I have an all knowing, never changing, all powerful, ever present God who knows my suffering, who understands my pain.

It has been the Cross, the love of God experienced at the foot of the cross. That is where I have found rest for my soul. This cross is so glorious, the glory of God manifest through this sacrifice, this suffering, this anguish. My God knows all about this pain, He is with me, even when I don't want to be with Him, even when I am angry, when I don't understand why, even when I believe He has forsaken me and rejected me, and failed to hear me. I can rest in His love even when I don't want His love, I need to remember that He has loved me and that He will not forsake me.This is the God we serve, let us not forget that He is who He is despite what we think. I praise Him for His grace and mercy!

When we think that the trials have stopped, we find ourselves in another and I have really experienced God's protection and grace in the trials of this life. God has been my Shepherd and comforted my soul in so many ways.