Blog Post 15

May - August

So here we are nearing the end of my third year, has it felt like a lifetime? yes! Do I regret the decision to get equipped to be a nurse? no! Am I thankful to the Lord for His grace and mercy in my life? YES!
I am so undeserving of Christ's love and yet He loves me despite me. I know I couldn't possibly fully grasp the full measure of His grace towards me but I can say that I am thankful for my salvation and for the way in which He keeps me and sustains me. This year has presented itself with so many challenges and trials, yet over and over again God has granted me the grace to overcome. When I find myself focusing on just how big my problems are I remind myself again just how small I have allowed my God to be. It is in those difficult moments when God wants me to look to Him. Daily I remind myself that God is far greater than I can imagine and He is doing something far greater than I can expect. He is sanctifying me, He is renewing me, He is preparing me for eternity with Him. Oh to see that day, what a hope! What a Savior!

In my last letter I mentioned the sudden passing of my brother Christopher, I miss him so much and there are days when it is difficult but I hold on tightly to my Rock! Just after my brother passed , I needed to move from where we were staying. God provided a place for me to stay with a wonderful sister in Christ who takes her walk with God seriously. Although this was a temporary solution, the Lord really used that time to bless me. I praise the Lord for the time that we had to stay together, I got to make a new friend :-)

The Lord has since provided a room for me to stay in on a more permanent basis with a family from my Church. The Van Zyl's have 4 daughters and they are a delight to stay with. I have been very challenged by their unconditional love, I am reminded daily of that quote from Paul Tripp "Serving others when our circumstances are difficult  free others from the hollow pursuit of personal glory and the enslaving nature of self love " I can testify that this family have shown that to me in a very practical way and it has challenged me to want to live a life like that. Praise the Lord for His patience and mercy with us!